Mental health exhaustion has been a popular topic these days. It can instantly catch people’s attention because of the wide range of confusion it contains. As for me, I get to think about it often because I know my everyday experiences are its contributing factors. Since I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, and a friend, I get to experience anxiety, stress, and depression everywhere. I feel like there is no time for me to rest, and that just sucks. I pretty much want to pause for a while from my responsibilities and avoid emotional, physical, and mental torture. Honestly, the issue here is not about what stresses my whole life. Instead, it is about the things I can’t do to maintain well-balanced overall health.
I Get Exhausted As Well
One of the heartbreaking things I often try to accept is that I am responsible for almost everyone. I sincerely get the idea that as a wife, I need to be there for my husband. I have to become the support that he can lean on every time he thinks that things are falling apart. Also, I understand my duties as a mom. My kids are still learning to get a hold of life, so I know I must be there for them throughout their development. As a daughter, I understand that I still have responsibilities to my parents despite having limited resources. Lastly, I know that social connection with other people requires me to exert an effort as well. With all these in my hand, I can say that I am not one of the lucky individuals who can have moments for themselves. Because unfortunately, I don’t have enough time for me. Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining about my life, and I understand the value of keeping my responsibilities intact. However, I just want the world to know that I get exhausted too. I feel tired and fed up with stress and pressure all day. Why can I have a break? I simply want to take a deep breath and excuse myself from all the piled up things I need to do, even just for a single day.
Can I Not Give A Damn About Things?
It is true that the only way I can get through with this mental exhaustion is to not give a damn about everything. However, that is entirely not possible. I can’t just ignore my husband and tell him I don’t want to carry all his desperations and frustrations because I am his wife. I promised to be there for him no matter what. Thus, I have to stick to that promise and take it all in. And to my kids, I can’t vanish and leave them all behind because they won’t be able to handle things on their own. They are too young for stress and more significant responsibilities. I still need to be there for them to teach them everything they have to know and understand. To my parents, I get that I should not have to worry about them anymore since I have got my own family now. But I am still their daughter. There will be times that they will have to contact me for help, and I must be there for them. Because, why not? And to my social connections, I can’t just let go of that. I need them to be there for me, especially when I don’t want to be there for myself. I need people to surround me with positivity so that I can manage to get through. I can’t just ignore these essential things in my life because, without them, I would not have a purpose.
What Are My Options?
I know, for a fact, that my mental health is essential. That is why I try my best not to allow myself to get drained emotionally and mentally. In fact, I take serious precautions when it comes to my overall health needs. Thus, I engage in routines and a healthy lifestyle that can support that. I exercise regularly by doing an ample amount of chores in the house. I eat healthy foods because I have to put that on the table for my kids. I drink plenty of water because I move my body a lot. And I talk to people often because I continuously rant about all the problems I encounter every day. Unfortunately, that seems not enough.
Again, I don’t blame the people in my life for all the responsibilities I need to do for them. I love them, so I don’t regret every hardship and exhaustion or whatever it is that is emotionally, physically, and mentally weighing me down. However, I just have this feeling of wanting to be with myself and away from everyone’s nose. Will that be selfish?